Biblical reflections

 I do not have a spirit of fear "for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self control." 2 Timothy 1:7 For as long as I can remember, I have suffered from severe claustrophobia. As in I have never been able to sleep with my sheets tucked in, I cannot go in caves and if a roof is low I really don't like it. I have no idea where this fear came from, all I know is that it has impacted my life. As such, it became another obstacle when I got diagnosed with cancer, as there are a lot of tests that really mess with a claustrophobic person. To get through these tests,  I had to take medication. Every MRI, CT or PET scan saw me reaching for a pill that would leave me groggy (which I hate) and still anxious.  About a year ago I arrived at the nuclear medical centre for a PET scan to realise that I had forgotten to take the medicine. My husband decided to go home and get my medicine, convinced like myself, that I needed it. But God was not having it. Not long b...

 AN UNEXPECTED GIFT       Image from pixabay, created by Bru-nO  Today was not meant to be a good day.  Today was the start of a new cycle of chemo, and in the 3 week cycle the first week is the most brutal. It requires 2 types if chemo, 1 of which is only given in week 1. It takes a couple of hours and for the first time it was scheduled early, if you know me and early these days you will get it. I was also anxious as the last session of chemo was awful and was the first time I had put in a complaint against a nurse. Despite the breast care nurse affirming  that the things that had happened were worth complaining about, I was left a little uneasy, as I was told that the team was going to hear about some of the things that happened as part of training. My understanding was the the specific nurse was spoken to, and helped a little and to be honest I think she was just inexperienced. I also made sure to say that what had happened was a one off and genera...